Body Image and Society

body image and society

Does anyone else sometimes hate the Facebook “On This Day”? For me it should be a good thing because it shows how far I have come in my weight loss journey and loving my body. Don’t get me wrong I don’t need to lose any more weight I just need to tone up, huge difference. But when I look at them my stupid brain just thinks what did 00Steve see in me, was I really that fat and no one told me? Read more

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

mirror mirror on the wall

Or for the purpose of this post phone phone propped up against my xbox one! I have mentioned a few times before I have never really liked what I saw when I looked in the mirror. Having eating disorders and mild body dysmorphic disorder to this day are a struggle to deal with but I still keep moving forward.

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Appointments Appointments

general appointments

Today I had an appointment with General Surgery (General Surgery *salute* to all you HIMYM fans out there) I thought I would be seeing my surgeon but nope I saw the Stoma nurse which was fine because that’s who I wanted to see anyway! I needed some more barrier rings and my peristomal skin is quite sore again. *Naked Stoma* straight off the bat in the post!

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Reasons To Be Cheerful 1 2 3

reasons to be cheerful 1 2 3

I’ve been talking to someone via my Facebook page for the blog. I mentioned about doing a sort of positive thought board. So when they felt fed up they could look at it and see how far they have come. I do these quite frequently they vary between lists, pictures well anything visual! In a way my blog posts can be included too. Read more

Fatigue

fatigue

 

Last night I really wanted to go to Pilates and tonight I wanted to go to Yoga. But my body isn’t playing fair at the moment. I’m so tired mentally and feel quite zapped emotionally. My stoma seems to have gone haywire, high frequency output and doesn’t like me drinking enough. Fatigue is honestly like having a full sized adult on my shoulders and no amount of early nights or lie ins make it better. Read more

Food Issues

food issues - eating disorders

So after years of having an awful relationship with food, I get very stroppy about not being able to eat what I want (most of the time swayed by TV! Damn my weak constitution) When my Ulcerative Colitis first started to flare up I was full swing with an eating disorder. Most people say oh that’s what triggered it. I still get immensely annoyed at this comment because it’s a genetic disease, I was destined to have the bloody thing. Read more

Hi I’m Stephie And I’m Scared To Drink

hi i'm stephie and i'm scared to drink

Hi I’m Stephie and I’m scared to drink fluids incase it makes my stoma output watery. That’s what I would be saying if I was in a stoma support group that was you know like AA or something of the like. And with this newfound phobia I have caused myself to become dehydrated, this obviously isn’t good on soooo many levels. On the plus side I have an appetite now! *naked stoma photo below* Read more