Returning to Work after Maternity Leave

returning to work after maternity leave

Returning to work after maternity leave can be quite stressful to some mums but for others as much as they love their children they can’t wait to get back to work and be “them” for a few hours rather than “mum”. I have gone back after maternity twice now and both times were very different. After Ra-Ra was born I went back to a job where I knew the staff, the job and it felt very much like my colleagues were family. This time after Button; I went into a whole new job where other than the basics of the job (once worked in care the basics are always the same) I didn’t know anyone, new paperwork and a new location. I feel very much like the outcast the typical new girl in the films of the 2000’s I grew up watching. Trying to join in with already established cliques. Read more

Let’s Talk about Perinatal Mental Health

Let's Talk about Perinatal Health

When I was pregnant with Button I was asked if I would take part in a local survey about mental health in pregnancy and as a new mum (perinatal). It’s sad to an extent they didn’t want to ask about new dad’s or dad to be’s mental health as it can be a stressful time for them too; especially when we still have the old “men must take care of their partners” and “men shouldn’t show their feelings” which I don’t agree with and won’t be teaching my son. I was picked to have an interview after they had collated all of the survey data, Button was less than a week old but I decided to participate.  Read more

Being an Inpatient and being a Parent

being an inpatient and being a parent

Now my Little Lady doesn’t find it anything new, mummy going to see doctors and even being an inpatient in hospital. Even though she is definitely not a fan of me going in it has some perks for her – I always get her some crap from the hospital shop and she gets to “look after daddy” by staying in my bed. But she was nearly 2 by the time I started being admitted regularly so she had a bit of understanding, whereas Button doesn’t have any; he cries when he hears my voice on the phone and doesn’t understand why he can see me when I video call but I’m not actually there. This is the longest I have ever been away from him or them both together. Read more

Human Is Beautiful…Perfect Is Boring

human is beautiful...perfect is boring

Like most young girls I dreamed of being a model when I grew up, but becoming chronically ill and being definitely awkward looking (not to mention steroid moon face) I soon realised that I wasn’t what society deemed as beautiful. Not that I was ugly really not in reality. Since meeting Jasmine back in 2016 I have wanted to model for her company but I was never going to be at the forefront of her mind when her brand exudes glamour and silver screen elegance – as I am a very proud punk rock princess! I however got to experience modelling for her recently and it didn’t matter about my tattoos as I got to be all decked out for Halloween! Read more

Post Natal Depression Is It Another A Slap On Label?

post natal depression is it another slap on label

Set up by Sophie over at One Unique, Huddle and Cuddle is a campaign to help raise awareness of mental health issues by using the means of social media. Influencers have teamed up to help this campaign and to spread the word, allowing people to never feel alone by sharing their experiences with you. Huddle and Cuddle wants people to get involved by talking to people, whether it be an influencer, family member or a helpline about their thoughts and challenges they may come across. I have chosen to talk about Post Natal Depression (PND) Read more

My Mental Health Is Being Squiffy

my mental health is being squiffy

With one of the topics on The IBD and Ostomy Support Show being mental health I felt it was the perfect time to write this. Now I have spoken a couple of times about being slightly fragile with my mental health and it is mainly down to events in my life triggering feelings rather than being depressed specifically. I definitely feel like the caesarean has deeply affected my current mental state but I don’t think it is just that.  Read more

Little Mister, His Big Sister And An Ostomy

little mister, his big sister and an ostomy

So since my beautiful Little Mister has been born my emotions regarding the events surrounding his birth have paled in comparison to how happy both 00Steve and myself are. It still isn’t easy to think about including removing my dressing and feeling like a piece of meat tied with butchers twine. This is apparently a normal way of finishing off a suture. Read more

The Most Traumatic Day Of My Life

the most traumatic day of my life

It was supposed to have been one of the most beautiful days you can have; becoming a parent whether for the first time or not it is supposed to be a time of love and joy. Well unfortunately when my son Jacob came into the world that wasn’t exactly the case it was pretty damn traumatic. But I will start from the admission to put it into context. Read more